Honestly, life has been dull. Cos' it's mostly about school and at most a few gatherings here and there to keep me going. But I can't bear to see my blog die like that again.So continue to watch this space OKKK! I'll promise to update soon.. After next Thursday that is! *winks*

Been wanting to pent this down. But i'm not exactly sure how to put it into words either. Haha. Oh well. Remember my last blog entry? Few days before, i tweeted sth like "Reading Bare Bones Guide to HTML. I hope it helps." And i was pretty taken aback to receive replies from friends who willingly and voluntarily rendered their help. It was the same thing as my last blog entry. Its not like i blogged or tweeted to ask for help. At least it didnt come across to me that i could get help this way. Haha. But friends took their initiative and offered a helping hand. I guess this is what you call true friends. Stepping forward to help, even without myself spelling it out explicitly.

True friends.
Are those who are willing to go the extra miles for you.
True friends.
Are those who probably wouldn't say NO to you when you are in need of company.
And i'm thankful that at least there's this handful of you whom I know I could always count on you.
Love you, my dear friends. :)

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All excited for tomorrow! Teeheehee. :P

This semester seems like a self-challenging one. Perhaps by the end of the sem, i would be transformed into some techno-geek.
Honestly speaking, i'm really pretty worried about everything. I needa design and build a website from scratch (no templates, strictly HTML and css codes only), design publications such as folders and newsletter, and most probably video-editing (since it seems like none of my group mates know anything about video-editing)

Yes, i might have some knowledge on HTML and a lil' past experience in customizing blogskin designs.
Yes, i might have use Photoshop to design cards for friends and for photo-editing.
Yes, i might have coordinated the whole video-making process and created a video using Windows Movie Maker.
Yes, i might have tried everything before and they don't seem too foreign to me.
But the truth is, there's only so much that i know. And what's worse, most of them are purely individual assignments. Dang. Nobody for me to count on except myself perhaps.

Its already the third week of school. Tutorials have officially kicked in. And i don't have the drive to get started on my work yet. So shitty isn't it? I have a 2500 words essay to work on, a web critique report to do, before the arty assignments commence.

Starbucks @ Civic Plaza. I'm coming for you every Friday! and maybe alt Wednesdays too. Guess thats the only place for me to chillax and concentrate on my assignments and readings. :)

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Thankfully, my social life has been pretty good. More time spent with my girlfriends. More gatherings. Though i'm still quite stressed over the $$$ issue. Been spending so much on my friends, so much so that i'm gonna not have enough to spend on myself, let alone save for my party. Totally not excited for CNY, cos' the red packets' money gonna be exhausted real soon.

On a side note, i'm totally looking forward to this Saturday. :)

Bahhh. Feelin' pretty irritated. I typed a whole chunk of my rantings earlier while I was trying to upgrade my Apple iPod firmware. They prompted me to restart the com, hence I closed my browser after seeing the word "Autosaved draft", thinking that my entry has probably been saved like what wordpress usually does for me. And guess what? It doesn't. :( Yea, so I had to type it all over again. Bro was trying to add on to it, and said something like "You can regurgitate the entire same chunk that you typed in a much shorter time frame that has a similar meaning, but with no FEEL!"

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As i was saying, words can kill. Especially one's tone. So please watch what you say, or how you say it. I totally lost my cool today. Really unusual for me. Since I'm not even the kind that would lose my temper at anybody easily. Not even once. Or maybe just THAT ONCE. Haha. Told my mum and bro what happened earlier today. And they too, were pissed. Basically, here's what that happened.

Lemme just give you a lil pre-text eh? Sometime back during last semester, some random Business student approached Pok & I while we were discussing our assignment at one of the tables along Arts walkway. Got us to do a survey for them, and in return we'll get a $20 Fairprice voucher. Basically, the survey is a one-week questionnaire and had to be completed by my dad. A month before my current semester, i received an sms from an unknown number, thanking me for the participation in the survey and redirected me to a website where i had to indicate the day i could collect the voucher. Indicated Thursday 21 Jan and I soon forgot all about it. Till today....

Then it suddenly dawned upon me that its the day of collection! BUT, nobody contacted me and gave me further details regarding how i can go about with the collection. Thankfully, i have a habit of saving my past smses. Managed to find the sms and hence i messaged the same number.

And here's the frustrating sms conversation. Let's call him A, and i'm M.

M: Hi, I just recalled that I'm supposed to collect the voucher today. May I have more details regarding the collection?
A: What's your name?
M: Tan Wei Shan Michelle
A: I do not have your name in my list. I could not have smsed you if I do not have your number. Why then, do you have my number, if I didnt contact you?
M: Because I kept the previous sms that you sent, and I remembered indicating that i'm collecting the voucher today?
A: I can't have smsed you if I don't have your number. Meet me at Central Lib at 5 with some proof that you or your parents did the survey. Your name and matric no. will be taken down and reported to the administration if they are unhappy with the administration.
M: Okay. (Didnt know it would be that much of a hassle, if I had known, wouldnt have bothered about that voucher. But my friends were saying that if I don't turn up, he would be even more sure that I was lying or something)
A: By proof, I would mean details such as age, gender, blah blah blah, and a whole long list.
M: Okay, i will try to get the details for you. But wouldn't the sms and the website where I indicated my particulars be sufficient enough to proof everything?
A: You can forge both. But not the details.
Couldn't take it anymore. He sounded really hostile, as though already doubly sure that I'm trying to con his $20 Fairprice voucher??! HELLO? This is damm ridiculous. I merely helped you with your school proj by doing the survey and was just trying to collect the voucher as I was instructed. And yet I had to be put through such false accusations of forgery??
M: But i think you sound really rude and from your tone, you are already assuming that i forged, when it was clearly due to your own negligence. However, please do be assured that i will give you all the details that you need. -inserts whole chunk of details which i had to ask from my dad-
A: I don't have the details.So I can't give you a voucher. My administration has told me not to be lenient towards such cases. Alternatively, you can come to my office and get another hard copy of survey to be completed. Sorry.
-After like 10minutes-
A: -gave some lame excuses about not be able to find the details earlier- Sorry ms tan, could you meet me at the Central Library at 5pm to collect your voucher. I apologize for my rudeness and negligence as I had to ward off a forgery yesterday and was still feeling bitter about it.

Worse still, he doesn't even look apologetic when i met him. It wasn't about his negligence. It wasn't about him being cautious of people trying to forge. But please, can't you just talk nicely, check properly before you start pointing your accusation at others?? Terrible. Where has the EQ gone?

Quickly logged on for a quick short update before i gonna let my lappie retire for the night. Feeling rather happy! :) Everything seemed to work out eventually. No more lonely semester. Cos' somehow or another, I managed to get a friend for each tutorial! And mum was really nice today. She offered to increase my allowance out of the blue. Just when I needed it most! Though i feel pretty bad to get more money too. So i asked, "You have enough to save or not?" And she was like "Wait till you come out and work. I'll get it back lor."

My schedule is really pretty packed now. Exhausted almost all my free days for the upcoming weeks alr. February is plain madness. Birthdays, gatherings, farewell parties, chinese new year. >.< Anw, i signed up for some part-time jobs alr. Prayin' hard that they would contact me tml or something!

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Some random thoughts. Rudy messaged few days back, and I recall we were on the topic of friendship or something. Didn't really strike me till recently. (Probably then I was too busy playing blind mice. Lol!) Like what he says, it's really hard to find true friends eh? It takes a certain amount of time and effort to maintain a friendship. Some people just come and go. You can get really close to them at some point of time, and yet the friendship can fade out in the blink of an eye too. And over the years, I sort of see who are my true friends. Thank you all for being with me! :)

Zzzz. There's so many events, gatherings, concerts to attend. My moolahs are going out, but not coming in! >.<
Seriously thinking of doing some no-brainer flexi part time jobs to get fast bucks.

Oh well, had a couple of interesting meet-ups during the past weekend.

Met up with my primary school mates from cfps!! Been so long since we last met (at least for me, cos' i didnt turn up for the previous gathering 1 week ago), but everyone just seemed so comfortable with each other eh! No awkward silence in between. Had dinner at Flaming Mangos at Jalan Malu Malu, and then proceeded to some ulu playground in Yishun for blind mice! Not exactly an ulu place la, but that was what Ziyan said i think, something about Jalan Malu Malu and going to an ulu playground. Can't believe we played blind mice! Haha. Its something like blindfolded catching, not so much of running though. Can you believe a group of 21s playing catching in playground? Lol! Well, i guess not much chances left for us to do that also eh. So why not? :P


Went cny shopping with ahTOH yesterday! I overslept and had to rush to school. And just when I reached the mrt station, i realised that i left my ezlink card at home. How smart. Figured that i'll be late for school anw, and a pretty much waste of time too, since i only had a 1h45mins lecture that day. Went back home, called ahTOH and asked to meet earlier. Wow, we could really shop man! And i have no idea why, but there's always so much to buy whenever i go shopping with her! Guess we have really very similar taste in dressing sense. We shopped for like a total of 8hrs odd! Felt as though shopping is our full-time job, and studying is our part-time job. Lol! Had dinner at Astons, we just love that place to the max eh!


Look at our happy faces with our shopping bags! :D


Mitju is all my new favourite shoe shop! They sell really nice and affordable shoes man. Both ahTOH and I bought 2 pairs there. See the shoe above? She bought the grey one, and i bought a blue one! Teeheehee.


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Btw, i'm not emo! Lotsa people been asking me the same question lately. Haha. Well, all I could say is, i love to say out my random thoughts, but in an implicit way. It may just be my thoughts, from what i hear, or from what i see. Might not necessary mean that i'm referring to myself eh. Heh.

Alright. Till the next time we meet then. :)

Have you ever been caught in a situation whereby you know what you're thinking is not right, but....you just can't control what you feel?

Come to think about it, the human brain has such an intricate network. Perhaps that's what that makes everything so complex and complicated.  If only there's a remote control for us to control what we think. Red button to erase all unwanted thoughts. How nice. (Or maybe not?) Suddenly the movie "Click" came to my mind. It was based on a similar concept too. Haha. Anyway....

You end up "disliking" yourself for harbouring such supposedly-wrong thoughts.

In love (or even in life), is there really such thing as right or wrong? Vague boundaries uh. So subjective.

Seems like everybody just love to judge people based on their own benchmark and goes like "Hey, that's wrong! That's not right. "

Is everything just about "cans" or "cannots"?

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Anyway, this seems like a lonely semester. Most probably gotta do tutorials and groups projects alone. And i'm not exactly the kind that would really open my mouth and ask people to accomodate me or something. (Though they could actually) But oh well, heck. MNO gonna screw up my timetable for Mondays. GG. Gonna end at 6pm instead of 2pm. Stay in school for a 3hours just to attend a mere 1 hour tutorial. How nice. Grahhh.

Bumped into a few friends in school lately. And how funny. Their first few lines were like "Hey! I read your blog!" Cute. Wonder if they even know i changed my blog alr. Lol.

Job interview tomorrow, followed by Timbre Mobile! :)

Now that holidays are over, I asked myself, "What have I been doing the whole hols?" Time really flies! Well, all I could say is, it had been an eventful one for me. Going out a lot with my girlfriends and other friends - shopping, sleepovers, singing, baking, picnic. Not forgetting, my almost weekly trips to Timbre! (thanks to all for your great company)

Was just looking at the photos that Jan uploaded on FB today. And I told myself I must at least share some here! It wasn't a really happy day for me last Tuesday. In fact, Joyce, Jan and Mong saw me fuming mad. But haha. I'm so glad these girls were around. They chased my dark clouds away. :)







Music is a really magical thing uh. Probably thats why I love Timbre so much. I could just sit quietly (minus the part abt me swaying to the music and tapping the rhythm with my feet :P), listen to the live band playing (53A!), and be lost in a world of my own. Haha. Not to mention, Sara and Alvin's "hyperness" never failed to perk me up. Lol. More to come!

Alright. I foresee a tough semester up ahead. One of my modules require me to build a website! Grahhh. Time to energize myself. Nights!

Psssst. Joyce, see! I promised i would update my blog faithfully. 3rd entry already! :P

Oh well. A fresh new term is starting. To tell the truth, i'm actually feeling pretty excited yet apprehensive about it! Spent a hell lot of my points in my modules this sem. (They btr be worth my points!) They seemed really interesting, but time-consuming too. >.< My moolahs are depleting like mad. And thats why I signed up for a part-time job. Yes, crazy as it may seem. Fancy signing up for a job when the holidays are over. Haha. But i guess there's this thing that runs in my family. "Never ask for money. Earn it yourself." More so, even if I were to ask for money, I don't think my parents could fork out much too. Very worried about next week's job interview. Seemed like a pretty demanding job which I gotta juggle 20hours of work plus my school work each week. (If I'm not wrong.) And guess what, the company turns out to be my brother's friend company, and its a job thats totally irrelevant to the course of my study. Now, i'm feeling more of the jitters! Just hope i don't throw his face or something.

Anw, the year 2010 feels so unreal. The year which i'm supposed turning 21. Explains why I needa get a job to finance my own expenditures. Alr received quite a couple of 21st invitations eh. -.- Btw, the thought of it makes me mad. Haha. Why must i be a June baby? Its the super peak period, chalets are outrageously expensive everywhere. Bahhh. For all you know, maybe i'm really not gonna have a 21st party. Heh.

On the other hand. I hope i get to visit Taiwan agn this summer break. :)